Perhaps

They say we must move through the pain to be free. I believe this to be true.

I believe during these otherwise invisible moments, this is where we might discover a new way of looking at the world, and ourselves.

Perhaps it’s here in our own vulnerability that we can quietly discover a new more meaningful path of self-exploration … thereby finding more opportunities to give.

With love, Shar

2 thoughts on “Perhaps

  1. Shar ~ did you write this? I don’t know if I’m responding to the proper place to leave comments!?

    If you wrote this, your mind is absolutely amazing. I am speechless as to how accurate you are with your wisdom! I am welled up with tears reading this. You are so insightful and genuine. It’s like you know and feel what other people feel. I love love love what you wrote. It hits my very inner nerve, my heart and my bones!

    Not to dwell on my past, but I lived a nightmare for so long. It brought me down to the depths of hell. I was lost and I lost every inner piece of me. I was destitute. He hurt me emotionally, physically, mentally and financially. He drained me of my love for life and for people. I became nothing but a shell. I was an empty shell of a person. This destroyed me because I know that I have a zest for life and a true love for people. I went through hell to get my inner self back. A few years of PTSD Therapy, inpatient rehab, outpatient rehab. The list goes on and on. I had so much hate and pure anger in my heart for the longest time. I lost my soul. But through my journey of reclaiming my life, I realized that I played a major factor in my own life. It was my choice to either keep playing victim and keep suffering or to let it go and take the help, the advice, the suggestions of others and take their words and put it to use. I decided I needed to listen and learn. In my worst times I decided to listen and take advice. I can honestly say that I have learned so much from people and because I took their advice and listened, that I really do believe I came out a stronger, more appreciative, understanding girl than ever before. I realized how much I took for granted, how self centered I was and unappreciated I was. I had to learn this the hard way when I was down and out at my lowest point. I have such a passionate yearn for life, friends, family, strangers. I have come out of my past with such a grateful and thankful and appreciative view on life these days. I wouldn’t have this if I hadn’t gone through what I did. Most people will never understand or believe what I went through. This is ok with me. I no longer wish for “Karma” for people. Now, I have learned to just pray for these people. I have learned so much while I drug myself through the ditches of hell. Sometimes I wish I could just vent and say outloud what happened to me but what would be the point? I know that it would solve nothing and if I vented out loud with names, I’d look like an asshole. But what you wrote completely hit home with me. I’m sorry for the long text. I know I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I’m grateful for where I am in life. Yes, I honestly do pray at the end of the evening giving thanks and love to my higher power. I also pray for people like my ex.

    It is here in my time of vulnerability that I realize what I have and I give thanks for it. I am so thankful for my new life. I am blessed beyond reason. I am a lucky girl.

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    1. I’m so truly touched by your note, you have no idea. Yes, these are my words and I’m just so grateful to you for reading them, and for reaching out to me. I’ve battled for years with this longing to write. So often I am torn between an inner pull to share my voice, while also feeling afraid of setting my words free. You must know that I’m so proud of you for not giving up on your right to be happy! I’m also so very sorry for what you’ve been through. I can’t even imagine. I must say that after reading your note, I truly believe you have been chosen. You have a beautiful way with words, and your story is yours to share. I hope you’ll consider a shift in perspective from thinking of it as venting, to that of spreading faith, and love. What if your life experiences, and all your pain and torment that you’ve transformed to gratitude… What if your story inspires hope and touches just one person? What if you are meant to encourage those who feel like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel? What if your pain has a greater purpose? How would that make you feel? Look at how you touched my heart? I had a pull to share that tonight, wrote it awhile ago but decided to share it. I almost deleted my fb group today because I was feeling torn. But instead I posted my words and here you are coming through to me with such encouragement. I honor you and your journey and wish you continued love, blessings, and joy in your life. With love, Shar

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